After I deleted the [chatroom] I was at a hotel in Utah and having a bad day.
I had a dream where a woman visited me and comforted me and told to put the site back up because it gave a lot of people hope.
Be that as it may, I am not one of them.
She explained to me that the name I chose for myself translates to xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
And that it was unintentional but appropriate, because it described where we were.
She said that I was welcome in Utah.
I woke up and laid there crying for about an hour.