{"id":7471,"date":"2019-10-19T04:56:00","date_gmt":"2019-10-19T08:56:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.fadingstar.mx\/?p=7471"},"modified":"2024-01-23T02:50:58","modified_gmt":"2024-01-23T02:50:58","slug":"cant-be-your-superman","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/2019\/10\/19\/cant-be-your-superman\/","title":{"rendered":"“Can’t be your Superman”"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I put it out there that I\u2019m sleeping in my car and trying to figure shit out, and I said I don\u2019t want help because I\u2019m tired of sexual motives.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And they go both ways.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nacuntie was right, he was like, make sure they\u2019re not just using you for sex.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was cavalier about it, like fuck yeah I want to get naked and cuddle with this dude.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I know, I know\u2026 we\u2019re all just there to get better and I don\u2019t usually do the 13th stepping shit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

[edit: two years later I am comfortable rephrasing this , and saying \u201clearn the difference between \u201clove\u201d and a \u201ctrauma bond\u201d or live with the consequences.\u201d]<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Everyone wants to be loved or held, quit your bullshit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That dude felt amazing in my arms and I loved watching him sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He was like I\u2019m going to ask my sponsor if I can keep you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And then in the same breath he was like, I can do better than you and I just want sex.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ouch. I got what I wanted and it\u2019s not what I wanted.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fuck, whatever dude, shut up and let me hold you until your prince arrives.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m cool, it\u2019s Los Angeles, everyone wants some fucking quid pro quo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And if you feel that that good in my arms, fuck, I don\u2019t mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe your prince did arrive and you were too stuck up to notice.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m not putting myself in a \u2026 ah, situation<\/em> again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I put it out there that I\u2019m sleeping in my car and trying to figure shit out, and I said I don\u2019t want help because I\u2019m tired of sexual motives. And they go both ways. Nacuntie was right, he was like, make sure they\u2019re not just using you for sex. I was cavalier about it, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4,1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7471"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7471"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7471\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12049,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7471\/revisions\/12049"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7471"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7471"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7471"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}